Regardless of how self-assured people behave "on the outside," there is always more of a struggle within. This is particularly the case with cancer survivors. The survivor in me wants to forget about cancer and live a life without thinking about it in reference to me. The psychologist/scientist in me wants to study survivors and determine if some mental or emotional toughness, immunity, or fortune distinguishes those of us who survive more than 5 years past the diagnosis. The mother in me knows I cannot forget that my own mother died of it 14 years after her first diagnosis, and that I shall never rest easy until both my adult daughters pass menopause without a breast cancer diagnosis -- that's a VERY long time from now.